A Year of Kindness and Accountability:
Yes I have, like most all people from European descent and probably others as well, have often began my year with a New Years Resolution.
The only problem with mine is that they were somewhat punishing. You know, "I have been such a lazy b****r this last year and ate too much so I must punish myself and forbid myself from having anything nice and I must force myself to live in the gym..." Often the dieting sort of books I would read were just as cruel...describing things as "ugly" fat.
SO those resolutions would last until about the middle of January at best. Because ultimately they were soul destroying as well as fat destroying. They were based around hate of the consequences of my action that were sitting for the world to see in the shape of my lumpy butt. SO they translated into being a constant barrage of cruel thoughts. I don't like cruel people so why would I want to invite one into my head and welcome the *itch with open arms?
Well here is what I know. I have been neglectful of my body. I tend to spend far too much time in my head...on the internet...behind a camera...doing photoshop...blobbed with a good book....blobbed watching my favourite shows on TV.
I just read a book called the Richest Man in Babylon. It was written in 1921-1926ish in the form of pamphlets extolling the virtue of clearing your debts, and socking away 10% of everything that you earn so that you have an income for your future. It was a philosophy apparently found in tablets of Babylonia which was at the time the richest city in the world. It was a fascinating read for me and got me thinking. First of all about how I handle my finances (think Kerrie from Sex in the City....but more for props for my studio than for myself at the moment), and second that I owe a debt to myself as well.
Each extra portion of Mallowpuffs, rice crispy treats, Ben and Jerry's/Big Bicky, Nutella...it was as if I were taking out loans that I had really no intention of paying off. When I read the section in this book about this guy who lost everything because of his debts, and how he went about learning to raise his head high and came back with a plan...a good one to pay them off and bring himself back into the respect of his community. He paid off his debts and came out ahead of the game...If he can do it so can I...end of story.
Now really I don't give two tosses of someone doesn't want to get to know me because my bottom is so ample that it has a shelf on it that can easily support a small child. That is not the sort of person that I imagine would enrich my life anyway. But what I came to realize is that I have a huge debt owing to myself of all people and it is a debt that I will not forgive until it is repaid. That repayment will take approximately 25 years to pay off because that is approximately how long I have been neglecting myself. So this means no punishing diet that will fail about midJanuary. But instead something more soul enhancing. I will seek out food that has the most nutritional value possible to feed myself with. Personally I have an issue with sugar...I treat it a bit like crack...a little is never really enough for me...I always crave more. So I am going to gently kiss it goodbye. I am going to move my body more as well. I always feel so much better when I take a walk. So why do I avoid the buggers so much? Odd that. Yoga seems like a good idea too. So I will try that as well.
This is a year of self love and gentleness. It is a year to repay debts to myself and anyone else I realize I owe a debt to. It is also a year to finally become financially prudent and wise.
This year according current urban myth could be the end of our time on this earth as we know it. So here is what I say...ROCK ON. Instead lets choose to create a world where we are loving to ourselves, have cleaned up our messes, and are working towards a rich abundant future.
Debtfree, healthy, and loving to ourselves and those we come in contact with....who is with me?
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