What does it all Mean really?

Right...one of my partners favourite shows in the world is Ancient Aliens on the History Channel. I like it for the characters that are brought out as experts and the constant phrase "Ancient Astronaut theorists believe...."  To which I usually roll my eyes and shake my head.  But every once in a while something will be presented that defies logic and also makes you think a bit.  What has struck me the most watching this is the amazing things built that simply get destroyed in time.  When they existed they must have been AMAZING.  Because even the ruins of them defy explanation.

So then I started to think about 1000 years from now....what will be left of my stay on this earth?  What will matter...to be honest probably fark all.

So then what is the point.  Is this a depressing thought or an incredibly liberating thought. If I were to die tomorrow as all of my ancestors have before me.  What legacy will I leave? Some pretty pictures drowned in the sea of pretty pictures.   Some images that are special to beautiful people whom I have had the blessing of sharing my life with?

In the end I don't think much matters to me except the quality of the moment I am in, right?  How much light I bring to people in the moment I share with them.  What I can give...not what I take.   WHo is remembered for what they take?  Hitler?

Who is remembered for what they give?  Your favourite grandfather/grandmother.  Mother Theresa, Jesus, Buddha, Lao Tsu, Martin Luther King, Gandhi ?  So what am I giving today?  How can I become a vehicle for getting more love into the world it might not make a heck of a lot of difference in the long term but it beats self absorbed taking any day.

What if everyday I figured out how I could give a little gift to the world each day?  An anonymous little match light of love that over the course of my life would add up to quite a blazing warm fire of peace that was created simply because the universe saw a purpose in having me be brought to the earth.  What if everyone did that?  Found a way each day to step solidly out of what they needed, wanted, their own little self absorbed bubble that we tend to live in and did something small but loving in the world. What would that world look like?

The Magic Spinning Wheel of Love

So I am going to my first Wedding Show this Weekend and in my typical style I have gone BIG.  I wanted to do something incredibly fun that would catch peoples attention so I had made this crazy lotto wheel and will have prizes attached to it for people to win.  Have no idea if it will be a success but I am calling it my Lotto wheel of Love.  Should be good fun none the less.  One of my gorgeous burlesque vintage cupcake divas.... Stella is going to work the wheel and the crowd for me while I talk to people about how we turn Love in to Art.  So today I am grateful that it is made in time...painted....and that I have a means of getting it to the show....have paid for the show....but most of all that I will get to meet heaps of lovely people and make their day by giving them a wee pressie.  Yeah!  Now bring on the good vibes and lovely souls.

Smudging my studio

SO today I did something I have never before done before and it felt sooooo good.  I had read about smudging...burning white sage to get rid of negative energy and bring on the positive.  I think it is a bit deeper than this, Native American's as I understand it use it for removing harmful spirits...really I think it is all in the same.

Well I needed some negative energy removed that is for sure.  I don't know about you but sometimes I find I have a tendancy to wallow like a big old sow in the mud of my fears.  I make a right drama out of it and if there isn't a drama to be had well I will make one to suit my mood....this is not my higher self at work that is for sure.

Well this sow...bitch...grumpy smurf what ever you want to call her had a right field day in my head of late.  I have had enough...so I evicted her.  Told her I know she used to live here but my Goddess is in charge now and well she can live in the broom closet if she likes but that is it.   Every once in a while she can come out and clean up some unresolved stuff but for now her services were no longer required and I was done with the pity party.  I have a dream to live and no more sucking the life from it.

So I burned the sage.   I am looking around my beautiful smoky studio and feeling right proud of myself. I wrote down on little pieces of paper my fears that had been bouncing around in my head like some one had let loose a bucket full of bouncy balls.  and I burned the farkers. "I'm too cubby to photograph fashion"----seriously who the bleep cares...I photograph real women anyway it probably puts some at ease that my bum is lumpier than theirs.  "I am too disorganized to run a business."---THen I thought back to how I was before I challenged myself with this business to where I am now...can hardly recognize myself.  Yes I still make mistakes but I am learning and improving systems everyday.  "It is too hard!"  Dear god woman you work in a beautiful studio with beautiful people, your work is darn good stop focusing on the piddly shit...you aren't having to forage your food in a rubbish tip...you are working in a business that you love...come on...wake up!!!!

So I did.   I stopped grizzling for today.  I wrote down all of the dreams I have for the studio again. And sent them up with the Sage.  I imagine that they along with the smoke were filling my studio with love.  That is really the cruxt of it.  I chose love over fear.  It is something I constantly have to remind myself  to do.  That and stay present in the moment.  So for today. I am here.  I am waiting on a beautiful soul to show up for her photoshoot and I am sending love out to all of you creatives who have bouncy ball days and sending you the love and desire to let those farkers go.....CHOOSE LOVE TOO!   Imagine how amazingly wonderful the world would be if we could all chose to live in love instead of fear.....mmmmmm yummy thoughts.

Here is the rubbish bin of burned fears...I highly recommend it..makes you feel so much better.

Hee hee hee two teen age boys just walked past the studio and one looked at the other with wide eyes and said..."dude.... do you smell that?"  I about peed myself laughing. 

No pressure

Good morning gorgeousness. Yesterday was a brilliant day for me. I changed up my ordering session style on a hunch. I let my muses watch the video of their images by themselves and then taught them how to drive the selection tools and sat at my desk working on post production of other clients and made myself available. It killed two birds with one stone. I got more work done and the muses got to see the images and select their favorites with no pressure of some one staring at them while they did it. At the end I would come over and help them cull images if they needed to get the number down. Each client yesterday that I did this for took my largest package. I was such a happy camper to be in a space where my images were loved so much that they needed professional help to cull the number down to twenty. It was a good day.

What was a moment of beauty in your day yesterday?

The Strangest Person in the World

2 Jan Plan

Spent the morning working on my Visioning Mind Map.  I find that this really helps me to get my head around my goals and know what I am shooting for.  Daily reviewing of it just waters the seeds that I have planted.  My mind map has my financial and personal goals in it.   I have big plans for this year and huge faith in myself to pull them off.

But for today:
Food =
Musli with yogurt and two fruits
Lunch:
Chili bean salad
2 fruits
2 pieces of toast

Juice with metamucil

Dinner:
Roast chicken and Mashed potatotes
Salad
2 fruit

3 pump bottles of water
a half an hour walk


Added to my mind map today:

this is the lens that I want to get ASAP as soon as the budget has saved for it.

 I need about 35 of these to get it.  But that is after I have covered all of the overheads, salaries, and the 10% investment savings that I have promised myself I will do (Richest Man in Babylon)

My completely impractical dream car which I will always love.  I will change cars to something very similar to this by 2013.

The Plan

Keep it simple sweetheart...yeah right this is me we are talking about:

But for now on the first of January this what I plan to do:

This year is about kindness to myself, accountability, and learning selflessness

Account for:
Food going in (plan my food each day)
Money going out (budget/cashflow...daily documentation of any outgoings)
Save 10% of everything I earn
Meditate every morning and evening (read my goals, make them pretty, believe)
A long walk at least three times a week.

As for my day I will do my best to follow the 4 agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz
Be impeccable with my word
Don't take anything Personally
Don't make assumptions
Always do my best

That is it.  Not expecting miracles just steady improvement from where I am done in a loving gently way.  Nice.