The Magic Spinning Wheel of Love

So I am going to my first Wedding Show this Weekend and in my typical style I have gone BIG.  I wanted to do something incredibly fun that would catch peoples attention so I had made this crazy lotto wheel and will have prizes attached to it for people to win.  Have no idea if it will be a success but I am calling it my Lotto wheel of Love.  Should be good fun none the less.  One of my gorgeous burlesque vintage cupcake divas.... Stella is going to work the wheel and the crowd for me while I talk to people about how we turn Love in to Art.  So today I am grateful that it is made in time...painted....and that I have a means of getting it to the show....have paid for the show....but most of all that I will get to meet heaps of lovely people and make their day by giving them a wee pressie.  Yeah!  Now bring on the good vibes and lovely souls.

Smudging my studio

SO today I did something I have never before done before and it felt sooooo good.  I had read about smudging...burning white sage to get rid of negative energy and bring on the positive.  I think it is a bit deeper than this, Native American's as I understand it use it for removing harmful spirits...really I think it is all in the same.

Well I needed some negative energy removed that is for sure.  I don't know about you but sometimes I find I have a tendancy to wallow like a big old sow in the mud of my fears.  I make a right drama out of it and if there isn't a drama to be had well I will make one to suit my mood....this is not my higher self at work that is for sure.

Well this sow...bitch...grumpy smurf what ever you want to call her had a right field day in my head of late.  I have had enough...so I evicted her.  Told her I know she used to live here but my Goddess is in charge now and well she can live in the broom closet if she likes but that is it.   Every once in a while she can come out and clean up some unresolved stuff but for now her services were no longer required and I was done with the pity party.  I have a dream to live and no more sucking the life from it.

So I burned the sage.   I am looking around my beautiful smoky studio and feeling right proud of myself. I wrote down on little pieces of paper my fears that had been bouncing around in my head like some one had let loose a bucket full of bouncy balls.  and I burned the farkers. "I'm too cubby to photograph fashion"----seriously who the bleep cares...I photograph real women anyway it probably puts some at ease that my bum is lumpier than theirs.  "I am too disorganized to run a business."---THen I thought back to how I was before I challenged myself with this business to where I am now...can hardly recognize myself.  Yes I still make mistakes but I am learning and improving systems everyday.  "It is too hard!"  Dear god woman you work in a beautiful studio with beautiful people, your work is darn good stop focusing on the piddly shit...you aren't having to forage your food in a rubbish tip...you are working in a business that you love...come on...wake up!!!!

So I did.   I stopped grizzling for today.  I wrote down all of the dreams I have for the studio again. And sent them up with the Sage.  I imagine that they along with the smoke were filling my studio with love.  That is really the cruxt of it.  I chose love over fear.  It is something I constantly have to remind myself  to do.  That and stay present in the moment.  So for today. I am here.  I am waiting on a beautiful soul to show up for her photoshoot and I am sending love out to all of you creatives who have bouncy ball days and sending you the love and desire to let those farkers go.....CHOOSE LOVE TOO!   Imagine how amazingly wonderful the world would be if we could all chose to live in love instead of fear.....mmmmmm yummy thoughts.

Here is the rubbish bin of burned fears...I highly recommend it..makes you feel so much better.

Hee hee hee two teen age boys just walked past the studio and one looked at the other with wide eyes and said..."dude.... do you smell that?"  I about peed myself laughing. 

No pressure

Good morning gorgeousness. Yesterday was a brilliant day for me. I changed up my ordering session style on a hunch. I let my muses watch the video of their images by themselves and then taught them how to drive the selection tools and sat at my desk working on post production of other clients and made myself available. It killed two birds with one stone. I got more work done and the muses got to see the images and select their favorites with no pressure of some one staring at them while they did it. At the end I would come over and help them cull images if they needed to get the number down. Each client yesterday that I did this for took my largest package. I was such a happy camper to be in a space where my images were loved so much that they needed professional help to cull the number down to twenty. It was a good day.

What was a moment of beauty in your day yesterday?

The Strangest Person in the World

2 Jan Plan

Spent the morning working on my Visioning Mind Map.  I find that this really helps me to get my head around my goals and know what I am shooting for.  Daily reviewing of it just waters the seeds that I have planted.  My mind map has my financial and personal goals in it.   I have big plans for this year and huge faith in myself to pull them off.

But for today:
Food =
Musli with yogurt and two fruits
Lunch:
Chili bean salad
2 fruits
2 pieces of toast

Juice with metamucil

Dinner:
Roast chicken and Mashed potatotes
Salad
2 fruit

3 pump bottles of water
a half an hour walk


Added to my mind map today:

this is the lens that I want to get ASAP as soon as the budget has saved for it.

 I need about 35 of these to get it.  But that is after I have covered all of the overheads, salaries, and the 10% investment savings that I have promised myself I will do (Richest Man in Babylon)

My completely impractical dream car which I will always love.  I will change cars to something very similar to this by 2013.

The Plan

Keep it simple sweetheart...yeah right this is me we are talking about:

But for now on the first of January this what I plan to do:

This year is about kindness to myself, accountability, and learning selflessness

Account for:
Food going in (plan my food each day)
Money going out (budget/cashflow...daily documentation of any outgoings)
Save 10% of everything I earn
Meditate every morning and evening (read my goals, make them pretty, believe)
A long walk at least three times a week.

As for my day I will do my best to follow the 4 agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz
Be impeccable with my word
Don't take anything Personally
Don't make assumptions
Always do my best

That is it.  Not expecting miracles just steady improvement from where I am done in a loving gently way.  Nice.

My New Years Gift to Myself: A year of Kindness

A Year of Kindness and Accountability:

Yes I have, like most all people from European descent and probably others as well, have often began my year with a New Years Resolution.

The only problem with mine is that  they were somewhat punishing.  You know, "I have been such a lazy b****r this last year and ate too much so I must punish myself and forbid myself from having anything nice and I must force myself to live in the gym..." Often the dieting sort of books I would read were just as cruel...describing things as "ugly" fat.

SO those resolutions would last until about the middle of January at best.  Because ultimately they were soul destroying as well as fat destroying.  They were based around hate of the consequences of my action that were sitting for the world to see in the shape of my lumpy butt.  SO they translated into being a constant barrage of cruel thoughts.   I don't like cruel people so why would I want to invite one into my head and welcome the *itch with open arms?

Well here is what I know.  I have been neglectful of my body.  I tend to spend far too much time in my head...on the internet...behind a camera...doing photoshop...blobbed with a good book....blobbed watching my favourite shows on TV.

I just read a book called the Richest Man in Babylon.  It was written in 1921-1926ish in the form of pamphlets extolling the virtue of clearing your debts, and socking away 10% of everything that you earn so that you have an income for your future.   It was a philosophy apparently found in tablets of Babylonia which was at the time the richest city in the world.  It was a fascinating read for me and got me thinking.  First of all about how I handle my finances (think Kerrie from Sex in the City....but more for props for my studio than for myself at the moment), and second that I owe a debt to myself as well.

Each extra portion of Mallowpuffs, rice crispy treats, Ben and Jerry's/Big Bicky, Nutella...it was as if I were taking out loans that I had really no intention of paying off.   When I read the section in this book about this guy who lost everything because of his debts,  and how he went about learning to raise his head high and came back with a plan...a good one to pay them off and bring himself back into the respect of his community.  He paid off his debts and came out ahead of the game...If he can do it so can I...end of story.

Now really I don't give two tosses of someone doesn't want to get to know me because my bottom is so ample that it has a shelf on it that can easily support a small child.  That is not the sort of person that I imagine would enrich my life anyway.  But what I came to realize is that I have a huge debt owing to myself of all people and it is a debt that I will not forgive until it is repaid.  That repayment will take approximately 25 years to pay off because that is approximately how long I have been neglecting myself.  So this means no punishing diet that will fail about midJanuary.  But instead something more soul enhancing.  I will seek out food that has the most nutritional value possible to feed myself with.   Personally I have an issue with sugar...I treat it a bit like crack...a little is never really enough for me...I always crave more.  So I am going to gently kiss it goodbye. I am going to move my body more as well.  I always feel so much better when I take a walk.  So why do I avoid the buggers so much?  Odd that.   Yoga seems like a good idea too.  So I will try that as well.

This is a year of self love and gentleness.  It is a year to repay debts to myself and anyone else I realize I owe a debt to.   It is also a year to finally become financially prudent and wise.


This year according current urban myth could be the end of our time on this earth as we know it.   So here is what I say...ROCK ON.  Instead lets choose to create a world where we are loving to ourselves, have cleaned up our messes, and are working towards a rich abundant future.

Debtfree, healthy, and loving to ourselves and those we come in contact with....who is with me?